ABC Diet Day 4: 400cals

Sorry I haven't posted in awhile. I'm having trouble finding avaliable computor time. anyway, today I ate 400 cals on the dot. My weight has come down to 98.2lbs. I'm getting there slowly. Slowly, slowly, slowly... I can't take the waiting. I couldn't and can't deal with the huge blobs of fat dangling by my sides. Apparently I was even too fat for a boyfriend, he left me. Alone, alone, alone.... forever alone.

Most recent picture of myself ^^...

ABC Diet day 3: 300 cals

Here we go! Well here's another update on my little adventure and many things have been paying off. Weight lost so far had been tremendous and I'm excited to say I've taken full measurements of myself (no so tremendous). Here they are:
Weight- 100.4
Weight lost- -2 lbs
BMI- 18.4
Chest (Ribs)- 27"
Breasts- 30"
Waist- 29"
Hips- 32"
Bicep- 9"
Lower Arm- 8"
Thigh- 17"
Calf- 12"
Neck- 12"
Shoulders- 36"
Bum- 33"
Wrist- 6"
Body Fat Percentage- 18.48%

I'm not quite sure if those measurements are good or not but I'm not happy with them. Esspecially my thighs and tummy. I also really wanna get my body fat percentage down to like atleast 15%. I'm also excited that I'm only .4 lbs away from my first goal weight! happyhappyjoyjoy. So another concern that's been bugging me is my boyfriend. He just lost ten pounds in a week for wrestling. I'm afraid he'll like weightloss so much and eating so little that he might continue and jump on the wrong track like myself. I wouldn't want this for him at all. Oh and sorry that there's no picture for today of myself, I was too lazy to take one after my six hour nap. Don't worry I look no different from last time. I'm going to start taking full measurements every Sunday from now on to see the changes. Wish me luck.
Stay Beautiful,
Jordan <3

ABC Diet Day 2: 500 cals

Today was less than a challenge. I couldn't belive how easily I am going past foods I would have once picked up with no thought. It's unbelievable. It's glorious. I ate okay today, not even things I like to eat. It was rather bland... Anyway here is today!
Current Weight: 102.2lbs
Weight lost: -1.2lbs
Overrall Weightloss: -2.8lbs
BMI: 18.7
Food intake: Breakfast Essentials Chocolate (130cals), Ham and cheese sandwich on wheat bread (250cals), French Onion Sun Chips (130cals), Chocolate Milk (170cals)
Total Food Intake: 850
Exercise: 35min on my eliptical (451cals)
Total Calorie Intake: 499
Me today:

No real difference yet but that's to be expected. I just wanna get rid of my tummy and thighs. Then maybe I'd be happy. Ughh, I wish I was taller so my weight would look like less than it is (I'm 5'2"). I wanna say that I am starting to get hunger pains but they aren't very extreme and I'm quite used to them this far along in anorexia. I've recovered about two times now. Bad habits really are hard to break. I need support... :/
Stay Beautiful,
Jordan <3

Oh The Irony...

My Boyfriend is a wrestler. In wrestling you have to try and lose weight to wrestle at your certain weight category. This week he was over his weight (122) by one pound (so he's 123). His parents (mostly his father) flipped on him and made him feel so shameful. It really upsets me. Then he told me that he plans on eating and drinking nothing but water until Monday. I was encouraging him to eat and be healthy and that wrestling is not everything. That he shouldn't feel the need to weigh a certain number. If only I felt the same way.
I'm such a hypocrite...

ABC Diet Day 1 (again): 500 cals

So today I decided to try again at the ABC diet. I am completely confident I can get to the end of this one (or quite far for that matter) this time around. Well here it goes!
Starting Weight: 105lbs
Current Weight: 103.4lbs
Weight lost: -1.6lbs
Overall Weight loss: -1.6lbs
Height: 5'2"
Calories Consumed:
Breakfast- Breakfast Essentials Pack (chocolate/original) 130 cals, Lunch- Macaroni and Cheese (200 cals), Hot Dog with bun (200 cals), Chocolate Milk 8oz. (140 cals) TOTAl: 770cals
Exercise: Eliptical Workout for 30min (497 cals)
Calorie intake with exercise counted in: 273 cals
So basically that's all I really had!
Here's me at the end of the day:

Ughh my thighs. :/
So today was my sisters 5th birthday and I had to dodge the ever dreded cake! It was actually less hard then I thought it might have been! Good. That means my sense of willpower is turning back on! :D
Comment and give me feedback. Love you huns!
Stay Beautiful,
Jordan <3

Still Huge.

Hey Guys! Here I am again! Curretn weight is now 105lbs, I'm still 5'2", and I'm still fat. I just wanted you guys to know I'm still alive....

AMAZING NEW WEBSITE!

ok so I found this new website: http://makeovr.com/weightmirror/
It turns your pictures into what you'd look like if you loose 5lbs, 10lbs, 15lbs, etc. It's a great motivator!
Here's my Result!                            Original Photo:

I took that and changed it into anything I wanted! It was cool! (downside is you can't save the pictures)
BTW I'd just thought I'd say I'm excited because my mom FINALLY bought us an eliptical(: Yay weightloss!

I'm Back!

I'm soooo sorry I've been gone followers!!! But here I am! It's not that I've lost motivation or anything cause believe me I haven't! I'm still a dieting diva with a mission for 75lbs!!! But during my absence I forgot what I truely want and thought I was beautiful again which I now realize I'm not... but anyway here we go again!!!

ABC Diet Day 2:500 cals

Today went amazing as far as calorie intake anyway! Well Here's my measurements:)

Start of Diet Weight: 99.4lbs
Current Weight: 97.4lbs
Total Weightloss: -2lbs
Pounds to lose until goal weight: 22.4lbs
BMI: 17.8

WHAT I ATE TODAY:
Stromboli- 480cals (not a healty choice but I was hungery for some)

Wish Me Luck With Tomorrow<3

ABC Diet Day 1:500cals (FINALLY!)

Like I said before nothing was or is gonna hold me back from doing this diet from now on!! I'm so motivated right now:) Anyway I decided to drop off the start of 0 cals I put there myself because that was my fault in the diet because of my mom and her idiotic way of making me eat in front of her so I just went straight to the actual diet with 500 cals!

What I eat Today:
Chocolate and Peanut butter cookie:200 cals (was forced to eat it for a school project)
Salad made of lettuce and cucumbers with ranch dressing: 100 cals
Sun Chips: 150 cals
TOTAL: 450cals

Starting weight for this diet was: 99.4lbs
Current weight by the end of the day: 99lbs
Total weightloss so far: -.4lbs
MEASUREMENTS (to be checked every Monday from now on):
Height-5'2"
BMI- 18.1
Chest (ribs)- 26"
Boobs- 30" (32A)
Waist- 29"
Hips- 31"
Upper Arm- 9"
Lower Arm- 9"
Thigh- 18"
Calf- 12"
Neck- 13"
Shoulders- 34"
Body Fat Percentage- 13.54%

Wish Me The Best of Luck! Make Sure To Comment to Keep Me This Motivated!

Another Thinspo

 Yummi:(

DAYYYUMMMM

Take the Challenge;)

I've found this great new way to keep myself motivated! Try it too!!!

MK challenge

15 Points:
*no food all day

*burning more than 300 calories

*eight or more cups of H2O

10 Points:

*300 or less calories

*burning 200-300 calories

*6 or 7 cups of water

*commenting on five other sites

7 Points:

*300-500 calories

*burning 150-200 calories

*4 or 5 cups of water

*commenting on three sites

2 Points:
*purging on a binge

1 Point:
*resisting food

*every hour of sleep

*every cup of green tea

*diet pills

-5 Points:
*binging

Calorie Intake:Fasting 8 Points
001-100 7 Points
201-300 6 Points
301-400 5 Points401-500 4 Points500+ 1 Point

Sleep (in hours)10-12 8 Points
08-10 6 Points
06-08 4 Points
04-06 2 Points
00-03 1 Point

Exercise (in minutes)60+ 8 Points
45-60 6 Points
30-45 4 Points
15-30 2 Points
05-15 1 Point
none -2 Points

Water (per cup) 5+ 8 Points
5 6 Points
4 5 Points
3 3 Points
2 2 Points
1 1 Point

Sit-Ups 120+ 8 Points
100-120 7 Points
080-100 6 Points
060-080 5 Points
040-060 4 Points
020-040 2 Points
000-020 1 Point

Post your points and this challenge on your blog and we'll all have a little competition! Point check every Monday! Tell me what ya think!!!

I love new followers!

I wanna say thanks for following me and now mtivating me to help my BIG FAT problem. I'm FINALLY starting my ABC tomorrow and no one not even my family can stop me this time around! I need to get this off my body. I'm disgusted more than ever my all of it just taring my in the face! :o i'M GONNA BE SICK

Some of my favorite Thinspo

                                                                   Her Arms are to die.

                                   The first time I saw this picture i cried so much.. why can't I have this?

 Her legs her hip. Nuff said.

 When I saw this picture I got my goal of 75 pounds. It was first 80 but I thought I'll be thinner than this at 75.

                                                                        Oh those ribs...

 The beautiful curve to her back and those hip bones! Stunning!!!

                                                       The gap in her legs i've wanted all my life...

                                                                                   ...

                                                                   Arms arms arms

                                                                           Tiny Tummy :'(

                                               Her ribs are soo amazing! The way they stick out!

                                              Needless to say her legs are my ultimate want in life

                                                    The gap at her hips between her underwear!

                                                                               Those thighs!

                                                                           Wonderful.

                                                                 The flat perfect tummy

                                                                        Ribs are so sexy.

              Hipbones are what I really look forward to at my ultimate goal weight. They are the sign of perfection.

                                                                                 Tiny.

                                                            Skinny is Sexy. Big Isn't Beautiful.

                                                         Reminds me of a skinnier prettier me.

                            Sierra is the name of a girl in my school. I hate her because she's beautiful.

                                                                                I wish.

                                                                           Legs again.

                                                                  Pretty pretty pretty skinny

                                                                I have a disgusting butt...

Want more? Tell me!

Me :(

Well that's me... :[

Worst Weekend Ever:(

First of all I've had to put off my ABC again until tomorrow because of the family diners I've benn forced into where everyone stares at me waiting for me to eat. I almost died when I checked the scale, I literally broke into tears. I'm now 99.8! Almost 100 pounds! I just can't take it. I'm about to exercise which will basically consist of yoga because it's quiet and my moms trying to sleep and my sisters as well. Here's a link to an amazing yoga channel on youtube try it out :http://www.youtube.com/user/sadienardini it works:)! Since we're on the topic of youtube I was wondering if you'd think it was a good idea for me to start making videos tracking my weight with a little clip of how my body looks each day on my ABC. Is it a good idea or not? Let me know! Secondly, my boyfriend broke up with me on April Fools day! It was so embarasing... and my last point of this blog is to give praise to my cousin, Kyle. He died exactly seven months again at the age of 21. He commited suicide. He's all I think about every moment of every day and it's so hard to live without him. He's my reason for the way I am (and the fact that I'm fat helps too). I wanna be able to hold him but I can't. I wanna see him but I can't. There's so much left I could say to him but I won't. I can't. I'm crying... I'm sorry...

R.I.P.
Kyle Hainley (September 3, 2010) I love you.

My Worst Nightmare

I was sitting in my room just a few minutes ago when my mom came in and handed me my washbasket f clothes to put away. After I was done I was ready to change into my cozy pajama shorts and a tanktop but I realized I couldn't find them anywhere! I asked my mom what had happened to them and THIS is what she says "Oh those things I threw them away! You're looking bigger lately and I didn't think you could fit into them anymore. You're getting chubby you know not everything will fit forever" and there it was, my worst nightmare in words. I'm not crazy... I am FAT. Why didn't some one tell me sooner?

I offically HATE my family.

They MADE me eat yesterday and today. I'm so disgusted that I can't even check my weight cause I know I'll cry. I'm so disappointed that I could only do one day of the ABC before questions were asked about not eating. But it's whatever. I'm starting again tomorrow so that's a bright side. I'll check my weight in the morning (gag) and we'll go from there! stress stress stress...

ABC Day 1: 0 Calories

As I've said before I always start off new diets with a one day fast and that's exactly what I did here. No food all day:). It's been so long since I've had a good successful fast because of my family. You'll notice that on Sunday I said I'd be starting with my fast on Monday but that couldn't happen because of my lovely family. But I'm so glad I could slip away from them and do my fast today! As long as they see me eating that's good enough for them. Here's my current measurements!

Weight at begining of day(start of diet weight)- 99.6lbs
Weight at the end of the day(current weight)-98.2lbs
Waist- 28"
Hips- 31"
Thighs- 17"
Arms- 9"
Neck- 12"
Calves- 12"
Body Fat Percent- 15.06%
BMI- 18
Height- 5'2"
Goal Weight 1- 90
Goal Weight 2- 85
Goal Weight 3- 80
Ultimate Goal Weight(for now)- 75

Tell me what ya think and be brutaly honest please! oh and BTW I'm debating whether or not I should start posting pictures of myself up as a visual of my weight... believe me it's not pretty...

Love yas!,
Jordan

Starting the ABC

I'm starting the ABC diet tomorrow but instead of day one being the 500cals I'm going to fast! I'm so excited!! I'll post my weight change every Monday with all my measurements and such! I'm sooo ready for this it's not even possible for me to be more motivated!! Comment and tell me if you're on this or if ya gave it a shot!
Love yas!,
Jordan

old pictures at my lowest weight!

They were actually only taken a month ago. Then I tried to recover... didn't work obviously.. btw I weigh 90lbs here. I'm 95.2 now.

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Hello Beauties:)

Hello there this is the first official post to my very first blog.! Everyday I'll be posting pictures of my weight loss and be measuring in every Monday! I'll write everything I've eaten that certain day and some other things I'll need to get off my chest! Just stay tuned and pass this blog along! Oh and feel free to always comment:)

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